update.

im back. finally and im starting fresh with my blog today.
ill start writing agian on the daily exceot for weekends.

but im not clean at the moment and my life is like a train wreck that is impossible to clean up.
im smoking weed, doing acid and shrooms.
so obviously im all strung out and it is a living hell for me.
im not a stable person anymore,
i need to find hope agian cuz if i dont soon ill probably die.
doing drugs to me is like eating candy.
i love it but its killing me and i just dont wanna believe it.

besides all that i have alot in store for me.
im getting an apartment soon, im looking for a job, and my mother is here from south carolina and were actually getting along, im surprised.
im excited about all of that so its all good things there.

my life is just like and ocean of difficult and easy things.
i can sometimes achieve those difficult things but i also am a failure at things.
its hard living at my house apperently im a failure there:( sadly.
i hate it.
im always getting ganged up on.

well thats it for today:) byeee

my poems:)

The Trial

Dreams are lined up agianst the wall,

As if your posing for mugshots.

Sentenced to life imprisotnment for a crime you did not commit,

We were all cast aways, all felt the heat of the world "Your A Failure".

We were told were not good enough,

not "right" enough to fit in.

And so they came here to the place of forgotten dreams.

A Lost Steering Wheel

Before I stepped off the sidewalk,

Straight down to the black top.

You brushed my hand,

In the median I glanced over my shoulder,

Why weren't you there?

A face unfamiliar, a hand grasping mine.

Different feelings, a whole new world.

Why weren't you in it?

Guidances absent, I found my own way.

And at the end of the maze, Will you be there?

Lost at sea

I feel them in my hand,

Organized and stacked,

They shiver and they chatter,

The noise doesn't matter,

But what is noise in a space like this,

Alone and echo free,

With no one present to hear my call,

Does it exist or not?

I feel my body rock back and forth,

The cold makes me feel numb,

Thus leaving silence for all my thoughts,

Screaming as they come,

My eyes are stressed open, yet all is black,

I slowly drift on my back,

The only light I see is a distant star,

The closest companion yet oh so far,

My weak arm reaches for the star,

Never have I seen such a starry night,

The wave stir, providing hope.

A distant voice says "grab this rope"

With no more waves to keep me warm ,

And a lack of painful silence,

 I know no star will be as bright as i float on my back on this starry night:)

Myself

I'm the suffocated coal miner, the teenage flatliner, that designated drunk driver thrown under the wheel, im the anorexic starver, the cancer patients daughter, that one perfect carver hospitalized because i told the truth, i'm the 22 year old widow, the OI baby to fragile to hold, that one gambler who just can't fold so he hides his addiction, i'm the suicidal teacher and the sinful daughter of the preacher, that one girl with not one skinny feature that alot of people avoid.

I'm someone i wish i wasn't, the person counting the wars i've fought, that one right hack that gets me caught, i'm all of these people cramed into one, that last standing warrior who would have won, the idiot searching for that one piece to the puzzle, i was trying to find myself.

Opening up finally,

alrighty then.
was just on my yearbook and someone asked me when i was gonna post agian...feels weird. i guess i have a fan:)

Recently actually two days ago i walked all the way to philly. it took me 16 hours:p man did that suck. then last night i stayed with my friend craig and his roomates. it was fucking crazy. i had a lil too much to drink and smoked a lil to much. i was deff trippin balls. so i did relapse. im really ashamed of myself at this point, but i guess i gotta start all over.

Right now at this point i really do wanna get fans. im trying to get lots of support. so im willing to put my address and shit up so you can write me a letter if you like. to tell me what you think.

Info.

 

regular facebook page.  https://www.facebook.com/lilitalianmeatball
modeling page.  https://www.facebook.com/BriellaSuicide

briella sorrentino
6 hillcrest place
sellersville pa 18960

house number:2155276947

just another day..

today is just another day. one of the hellish days a person like me would live:( im really struggling with the things in my life at the moment. i dont know if ill feel better about how things are for awhile.but my next blog will be better and longer. bye<3

whats wrong with me

Im sicker then ever. already got into an argument wit my nana. What the fuck? all i do is reach her expectations all the time  even if im sick or hurt because i care about how people feel about me. so ive been pushing myself the last two weeks to go to school. even though im really sick,sunburnt, and so stressed out that i have panic attacks 3 times a day...im pushing myself past my limits to be perfect and then i never get anything in return not even one bit of respect. i dont care one bit if they try to do something to make me goto school. im not going and thats final. i cant keep putting myself through something that is affecting me big time. all i want is for everyone to lay off while i try to get my life together. its hard enough as it is. but i dont need all these fuckin grimlins on my ass. i have nothing left to say about this. and i just believe im being discriminated against. i dont know anymore. does anyone have any advice?

naughty freestyle:D

bitch hop off my shit. suck on sum dick. stop stalking my life just for a kick. i aint makin no deal. im keepin' real, keep fuckin wit me and you will see a bullet in your head for fuckin with brie:) i'm only spittin these lines just for a dime. your fuckin with me and you will soon see. it will bite you in the ass and punch you in your nads. once you fuck with my mind ill just spit outta rhyme. i aint gonna be spittin out them kind ass rhymes. your gonna make your life hell for tryin to fuck wit dis girl. see you walkinn down the street, i walk over in a creep, and pop a cap in your ass and then dick it on out real fast. see your body on the news. party wit my crew. ill fuck with your life with one slit of a knife. no crying for mama cuz you brought up all dis drama. you fucked with the wrong lette. thats why i got my glock to your head. but i aint gonna kill you yet. im gonna make you pay for fuckin up my day. i got blood on my shirt from draggin  your corpse to the curb. im so fuckin pissed so ima just throw your fuckin body in a ditch. dont even bother ill go tell your mama. no more need for your bullshit and drama. see then i got the time to snort at least one line. doped up and gone so ill just eat out yo mom. to make her feel better about losin your ass and findin someone better. ill get her that dime and smoke her up all night, and then go for round 2 cuz thats what she wanna do. to bad aint nobody wanted to fuck wit you. i stopped the drama, i ate out your mama, im probably not the person you wanted to bother. i hope you regret fuckin wit my head, you just saw what happend when you fucked with a down ass juggalette. i may sound like shit spittin my rhymes all about you dyin. disrespectin you bitch because you a fuckin dick. u cant mess up my flow at least im makin that doe. while you layin  bleedin like a bitch cuz you had to be a fucking snitch. im not sad im not mad i just love blowing off your dad. then shove it down my throat untill i reach his nads, i wont choke on that shit cuz i always lick that dick. while your not around i show im that im down with the clown, face paint on, lickin his balls, check in with me and ill do that jobs. ill lay on that bed and force down his head so he can beat up this shit and get his face paint all over my  thighs while my pussy get wet. i like a surprise so bite on my thighs. get me off real quick so i can suck on your shit. after your done. im on to the next one. ridinn in that taxi, chillin in that back seat, rolling up that j so i can soar through my day. light it up  and blow out the kronic. walk out that taxi, spit in that  backseat ,just walk the fuck away and yell have a nice fuckin day. i dont wanna go home cuz i wanna give some dome to that sexy ass clown who name is shaggy 2 dope. but i aint gonna be fuckin cuz he probably already tookinn. so ima think about  the dirtball and me havin that dirty and rough sex. id give that king some dome after he takes me home hopefully he aint a guy that would pull out some chrome. im a dirty girl with a mind of my own. living each day stoned. so suck on some dick and go down and lick. just finish me off so i can do my job. spittin these rhymes all of the time. true juggalette makin you sweat ,when you hear me rap your pants start to split. im the fucking shit, makin you wanna hit, to bad you aint cute ima just give you that boot to the side, and make moves on your girl thats a juggalette.im done with your ass so gimmie that cash. before i lay you out. ima real fuckin homie just letting you get to know me. im 4-20 friendly and im always gonna be ready for whatever you got, share that pot. blow out that smoke take a bong toke. show you that im down with clown and im freestylin now.

thanks:)

People thanks for reading my blog. there will be plenty more to come. ill be typing up more stuff ina few. im just trying to think about what i should share next. ill move onto a happier topic though. my first post was to give you an idea about what im going through. ighteee peacee<3